Don't want to go out

I can't face going out today, I've got to get bread from the bread shop but I can't face it. I shut myself in the bedroom for 2 hours and just cried because I have to buy bread?????????????? I don't feel like me anymore, I want to go home and just be able to get in the car and drive to Tesco and not feel like I have to think about every single little thing before I do anything.

I can't stand feeling like this, it's like a black cloud hovering over ahead and it won't leave me alone. I haven't felt this low before, well actually I have because I had it just after I had Alex. I pulled myself out of that and now I need to pull myself out of this but how??????????????????????????

I don't understand why I feel like this, I should be grabbing this opportunity we have been given and making the most of it but I don't feel I can...............